One hour until the clock strikes twelve. One hour until the fireworks boom. One hour until couples kiss and smile.
One hour to change everything.
I stare at my trembling hands. The world is at my fingertips. Before, I was at the world’s. I had done some terrible things that I wish with all of my heart I could take back.
I squeeze my eyes shut and clench my hands. Fifty-nine minutes. Fifty-eight.
When I open my eyes, I’m no longer sitting on my couch and watching TV. Instead, I’m sipping coffee at my favorite cafe, Donatella’s. It’s a small place, with warm customers and happy smiles. The aroma of chocolate floats in the air.
The bell on the door jingles, and I know exactly who will walk in.
A boy my age strolls inside nonchalantly. He observes the cafe with a cute glance.
My heart beats out of my chest. His name is Dominic Smalls, with blonde hair and a blinding smile.
I had traveled back to when I had met him. I had traveled back to where our relationship started. I rise to talk to him, but I remember what I had done before. When I was at this cafe, and I decided to talk to him. We were together, but he encouraged me to do things I would never do. Things that I regretted doing.
My biggest mistake: falling in love with Dominic Smalls.
I stare at my hands again. I have two options: Say “Hi” and relive my mistakes, or change everything so I wouldn’t have to.
This is the end of it.
I watch as he orders his drink. He turns to leave, and I divert my eyes. Hiding behind my mug, I watch as he exits the cafe and strolls down town.
Something lifts off of my shoulders. He’s gone. I think. My mistakes are gone.
Suddenly, a movie flashes into my eyes. Moments of me and Dominic doing things that we shouldn’t. Things, that I could never do again. The movie is gone with a flash, and I’m back in my living room.
I cannot believe it, I can’t.
I had just changed my life.
I smile. Things couldn’t have turned out better. I had erased that part of me that I regretted. Not talking to him at Donatella’s had changed my life.
I am glad it did.
When midnight comes, fireworks will boom. When midnight comes, people will cheer and drink champagne. When midnight comes, I will not have a boy to kiss.
When midnight comes, a page will turn and a new chapter of my life will begin.